Made me cry.

Today we got something in the mail. It said: To Adeline and her baby brother.
I did not recognize the return address, but started to open it. When I saw that it was not wrapped, I thought I should do this later, but Jeff said just open it.
So I did and I totally got all teary. It is Tender Heart. The care bear. Oh man oh man.
I find myself doing one of the things I do best- being positive, and painting all the positive things I feel and observe around me to help buoy me up. But at the very same time, I am so full of concern and care for our baby boy, and when I talk about his open heart surgery... I get so emotional. I feel all the love and worry about the pain, and about the scar... I know he will be resilient and do well, but it does not make it any easier to think about the major surgery he will be under going. And the time it will take to recover. And how Jeff and I might just hold each other for the hours he is in surgery.
It is an amazing thing that our family is going through at this stage of life, and I hope we will be stronger because of it.
I also try to keep thinking of things to look forward to, which we have so many! But the longest day of my life will be the day he is in surgery, and waiting to hear everything has been completed and successfully. I think sometimes I try not to even think about it- nothing can prepare us for it.

5 pounds 6 ounces

So we got an ultrasound today to estimate the baby's weight. They estimate him to be about 5 pounds and 6 ounces. yay! That is so great. Of course I read about how accurate those can be, and they can vary from 1 pound under to 1 pound over. One of the websites explained that if you took 3 measurements on an adult it would be very hard to predict their weight because of how they are built, ect. Well that is why it is basically a guess- head circumference, belly circumference and length of the foot.
But everything looks good with the baby, the fluids are normal, he is moving, and practice breathing like a champ. He is definitely a HE, and it made my day to see that!

What I can not believe is that 5 weeks from now we will have our baby boy. If he does not come on his own, sometime after January 1st, (That marks 37 weeks) then on January 17th they will induce labor. That will be week 39.

We are going to try to have a vaginal delivery and do it with no pain medications. What is interesting is they prefer me to have a vaginal delivery if at all possible as it compresses the amniotic fluid out of the lungs. This is a relief to me, as that is what I prefer.

We realize that the baby's safety and health is number one, but we are hoping to have a good labor and delivery for the both of us. That being said, we will do whatever is necessary to get him here safely.

I was thinking how amazing this little guy is, and how becoming a parent has taught me so much about love. I love him and our little Adeline more than anything.

From here on out I will be having weekly ob appointments, including non-stress tests and biophysical profiles. Lots of time, but that is okay- I love to see his little body, and I think he might have good lips like his sister:)

I am excited for our little family to be growing...